Sorry guys....i messed up

[Lindsay_D]

yeah guys i'm going through a really tough time right now....i got kicked outta my house....todd and i aren't together...i got a new job...i got into trouble with drugs <~~~~stupid i know but it was my mistake...

i'm so stressed guys and i don't know what to do...the only thing that is saving me is my new job. i work at a fish farm that has hydroponics and stuff...but that seems to be the only thing that is saving me....

im sorry guys....i'm sorry for everything i've done wrong...right now i don't know where i'm going or what i'm going to do with my life....

i don't mean to bring you guys down i'm just letting you know whats up....if i'm not on that much or not on for a week....don't think its anything bad...believe me i'll let you know if things get worse...but right now i don't think they can....

I love you guys and i'm sorry

Love Lindsay

[Severus]

I am really sorry to hear that Lindsay. Ill admit that i did experiment with drugs a little in HS, but realized it wasnt worth it and it was a BIG waste of my hard earned $. Hopefully you will soon realize that too. As for your new job im glad to hear that. I wish i could work on a fish farm.. you are certainly lucky in that respect. Im stuck at Friendlys instead lol. If you do really feel that you are at an ultimate low in your life just look at it in a more positive light and think.. well since im so low, there is only one direction to go...and thats UP. Dont worry about Todd or your parents kicking you out. Your parents love you and im sure you know that and they will come around eventually. Good Luck with everything!

[DemonShark]

Were are you staying now??

[kimmers318]

Lindsay....with what I know about your home life and your recent past...I hope you take this opportunity to decide that ONLY YOU can make YOUR life what it can be. As mentioned...you have only 1 way to go now....that is UP! This can make you weak and destroy your life....or you can decide to let it strengthen you and become a stronger woman for it. I personally can't understand a parent telling a minor child to leave unless they are sending them somewhere to get the help they need, but my mom thru both of my sister's out at 17 when they got pregnant, and they got thru it. One of them moved in with me until after she graduated it...the other stayed with her boyfriend until she turned 18 and then got help from welfare until the baby was older and she got on her own feet. Use this time to decide what YOU want out of life and do what YOU need to do to blossom into a strong young woman. Look towards your future, not at the past and move on. Don't let your mistakes get you down girl.
Keep in touch with us so we know how things are going.

[gwenkat]

Lindsay - I am so sorry to hear about what is going on. Kimmers is so right. Use this time to get on your feet. I am sure everything will work out for you. We are all here for you.

[Lindsay_D]

Okay guys and girls heres my update on my life:

Well i lived out of my car for a day and then my dad requested me back home. I came back home and then got into another huge fight. the school has given me in school suspension which i finally finished today! yay!!!!

Well todd keeps trying to call me and talk to me but i told him i just want to be friends and thats it....

On a sad note i'm grounded till the end of time at my house....and the school won't let me use internet till january....anyways. thanks for all the support guys and i'm sorry for what i did.

LOVE LINDSAY

[William]

Sorry to hear that Lindsay. you now that you are always welcome here and that we will be here when and if you come back.

Glad to hear that you atleast have a job that you like and hope the rest work itself out aswell even if it looks dark right now.

[Lindsay_D]

sorry to be the bearer of bad news....

After all that happend with the school and stuff...my dad and i got into a fist fight. He struck me in the face and left a bruise...i almost left my house with my stuff but then they took my keys...

The next day i went to the school and talked to my friends before i went to work...they saw my face and reported it to the school....

My dad was upset when DSS called and came over but i guess everthing is okay now...i'm still mad at him for hitting me and he feels bad...

My family is pissed off really bad and my brother wants me to move with him in california...but im going to finish school and i'm moving out before i graduate because we get out of school early...

SORRY guys...i really messed up lately...

i gotta run love you all

LINDSAY

[gwenkat]

Oh Lindsay - I am so sorry. Parents should never hit their children. I hope everything works out for you.

[kimmers318]

Okay Lindsay, so ya messed up...don't dwell on it, don't let it bring you down. We all have messed up more than once in our lives. Just struggle through everything as best you can looking at the end, maybe this chance to go to California to your brother will be for the best. Keep that in focus as your main goal...graduate and get out and start over. Whenever you start to feel down remind yourself that you are only in this situation for a brief time until you can graduate. If you keep yourself focused on the positives that you have to look forward to the negatives won't seem so bad.
Keep in touch and know we are here for you!

[Lindsay_D]

hey guys heres another update....

I haven't been home much i've been working my butt off working lately and just the other night i got into a car accident...my car spun out as i was getting on the on ramp...my car was tipped over on its side for a minute and then it went back....

my tire is messed up...i need an allighnment and my frame might be bent..so now i have no way to get to work...my boss said i could have as much time as i neeed but i have insurance to pay for now. and my cell phone too...

Anyways...since i'm never on keep in touch with me through emial please...

ohfortheloveofpete901@yahoo.com

Thanks guys i miss you all XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

[William]

Very sorry to hear that but it is good to hear from you!!

[Lindsay_D]

hey guys a quick nice thanksgiving kk Gotta run bye guys

Have some good holidays...i'm getting a new car..ill explain later bye